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This was a pinch-hit I fulfilled for Seasons of Drabbles!

Title: carnal idolatry.
Fandom: Terminator / The Terminator (1984)
Character/Pairing: Kyle Reese/Sarah Connor.
Summary: Kyle would think he must be dreaming —except for how he's never felt so present in his body, so keenly aware of the nerve endings in each of his fingertips. So exultant, and at once, fearful.
Word count: 300.


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Kyle would think he must be dreaming —except for how he's never felt so present in his body, so keenly aware of the nerve endings in each of his fingertips. So exultant, and at once, fearful.

But what else could a man think, when the subject of legend, an idol once carried in his pocket, as close to heart as possible, was made flesh before his eyes? When he could see her, and breathe her scent? When his body could warm her, and serve her as reprieve or as shield?

How could it be real, when she kissed him? When she pressed him against her body and pulled him into her legend, made a space for him within it, within her, in defiance of logic and sense and reasoning?

Under those circumstances, a man ought to conclude that he was trapped in a rhapsodic dream; perhaps a gentle offering conjured as a means of comfort in his last moments.

Yet, real or imaginary, Kyle would take the same actions. He would respond in kind, following her lead in every caress and every sweep of the tongue. He would give himself fully, tender flesh and open, bleeding heart. He would shape himself into the form most pleasing, the one that best fit her desires, and it wouldn't be a pretense —full of candor, he'd known himself to be unformed, unmoored, until she laid eyes on him. In a world where a boy had to grow into a weapon, it ought to be a freer past, a freer woman's hands, that would assemble the working pieces of him back into a human being.

And as his own self, Kyle would dare to reach higher with his greedy, selfish hands than he'd ever thought himself capable of; as high as she allowed him.

must we

Feb. 26th, 2026 02:45 am[personal profile] setsuntamew
setsuntamew: (Madara → sad wet boy)
I'm gonna try very hard to fight the "haha anxious fears were right" thoughts and also wait until the full MV release, but.......my fears were kinda right and I'm so far just very "meh" about the MaM fanthanx preview :T

The bit of song preview we got is slow and just...not the sort of song I'm into. I know that Halloween Rendezvous is soooooooo good so it's hard to follow up something like that, but most MaM songs have more energy??? I'm really holding out hope that the full version is better ;w;

And then I'm also not a huge fan of the outfit D: The card itself is really pretty, but there's sooooo much going on with the outfit...


I love the stars and sparkles of the bg and his face is so pretty but there's too much going on in the outfit and not enough tying it together

One of the problems is that while the default MaM outfit is cowboy themed, none of his event outfits ever are, so it's hard to design something that captures the essence of MaM when every time he wears something completely different. It does look a bit better in the one screencap of the MV that's been revealed, but like. bluh.

BLUH!!!!!!!!!

Also, my least favorite character in all of enstars is the 4* in the event 🙃 I'm being so strong and brave about it, but like. sobs. why. I know Madara has like 2.5 friends and that it's too much to hope for Kohaku to show up, but like....Leo????? Can him and Leo hang out ever again, or is that forbidden now??? They've barely done anything in !!-era stuff, like?????????????? plz let them hang again ;w;

I have more thoughts but it's nearly 3 am and I like....don't wanna keep being negative right now cuz I'm just gonna wind myself up again.

At least the other scout box 5* is fucking incredible. It's a very beautiful Mika card and I'm holding out hope I'll get him ;w; My mental health hinging on a single gacha card......

also my image hosting is still broken I hate sending support emails I want to give up
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Back in 2017, Alex had to have knee surgery. The meniscus in his right knee got a "bucket handle" tear, and the "handle" flipped up into the joint. Stuck in the joint, it meant he couldn't bend the knee at all.

It took way too long - a couple of months - to get surgery, by the time all the proper referrals happened.

Yesterday, his knee - the same one - started slightly bothering him. Nothing seemed to "happen." We ran some errands, went to the store, came home. Laying down for a bit he said it was hurting some, but we just chalked it up to the weather, maybe. Until it got worse throughout the afternoon, swelling and causing a ton of pain.

He said it felt basically exactly like it did pre-surgery, including being unable to bend the joint. Taking a look at info about meniscus tears... there's something like a 30% chance of having it re-tear and just do the same thing again. Rolled a bummer on that.

So fuck. He can get around slowly and suckily with a cane, but that's not sustainable. So... probably looking at ~surgery~ again. Also sucky, because this time he didn't even feel the tear itself happen, just the after-effects.

He's still sort of deciding what to do. The clinic he goes to no longer allows you to make appointments, and instead operates on a walk-in basis, where you see whoever is available. The process of waiting to get in with a doctor, waiting for a referral for imaging, getting the imaging appointment, getting back in to a (possibly different) doctor, waiting for a surgery referral, doing surgery consultation, getting the actual surgery date...
He's also considering going to the ER in the hopes that they will simply do the needed imaging there, and that it will cut out one set of appointments and referrals.

Of course, there's really no avoiding that it needs surgery, and putting off the first step isn't getting it dealt with faster.

At least his knee had the courtesy of waiting until I was mostly recovered and mobile before exploding.

This year is not getting any less fuck off worthy.

🔊 Daily music

Feb. 25th, 2026 09:32 pm[personal profile] bluapapilio
bluapapilio: It says "Hello, I'm anxious" (anxious)
@ Spotify

I live in a weird world
Yeah, it's sad but it's true
Maybe you can't see it
But you live in one too
I used to be a dream girl
But the world interfered
At least now I know why
Now I know why
Now I know I'm weird
🎤
Allie X - Weird World

[admin post] Admin Post: [Amnesty #029] Extension

Feb. 25th, 2026 08:41 pm[personal profile] fanweeklymod posting in [community profile] fandomweekly
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Hi folks! Your friendly neighborhood mod is having one heck of a week, so I'm going to extend Amnesty #029 for an extra week to give me time to catch up on things. Feel free to keep posting any Amnesty fills you have in mind! The new challenge will be up at 9:00 PM EST, March 4.

Yume Has Blessed Me

Feb. 25th, 2026 05:49 pm[personal profile] setsuntamew
setsuntamew: Yume with the text "this fallen angel could be yours" (Yume → this fallen angel)
The first rate up box for the MaM event started last night and 1) I really like the card and 2) he came home!!!!


Yume is suuuuuch a cute brat and I'm glad here's gonna support me in my quest for Madara~

Also, he crashed my phone XD like literally in the middle of the scout my phone completely froze up but wouldn't shut off, so the scout music was just playing while I was desperately trying to get my phone to turn off. Thanks, Yume.

I ended up really liking the most recent JP event, tour aspect and all, though I do need to sit down and read the last little bit of the story. I'd been more meh about the Megastream arc this year - especially the first chunk of it - but omg it picked up in the last few parts!!!! And I'm not just saying that because Raika was a 5* in one...promise! I know that enstars stopped showing the authors of stories anymore, but the final Megastream story really feels like an Akira story. It gripped me in a way that others don't and just...idk man, it just had the vibes. Liz and I talked about it and we said way smarter things but my brain is currently like PPPZZZZZZTTTTT so idk what to say now.

OH BUT WAIT THERE WAS MORE I LIKED!!!! Instead of each stop on the tour being 4 assorted song with only the last song being related to a character from the tour (usually), each stop was a specific unit. And then the second half of the tour includes cover and/or fusion songs in each stop. It just really felt like it pulled the gameplay aspect of enstars into the story itself, and I really loved it. Also I like being prepared in advance, so knowing what units were coming up was nice.


AAAAAAAAAAAAND!!!!!! The second MaM stop had two Double Face songs, so you know I was crashing out (with joy, and also because my phone crashed twice during it)

So, overall the tour was really good!!!! Which is not something I usually say, since I usually find them grueling :T But this one was fun!!!! My only major complaints are:
  1. No MV outfits- not even for the gacha cards. I didn't end up scouting on the rate up box, because what's the point if even the 5 stars don't come with a dress up option?
  2. BRIGHTEST STARS!! didn't need another version. like. okay, this is personal bias, but LIMIT BREAK DREAMERS is the best anniversary song and I knew the 10th anniversary one probably wouldn't top it, so maybe I'm just salty that it didn't get another fancy version. Also, I'm still haunted by having to play BRIGHTEST STARS!! repeatedly last April, so this was like a horrible flashback D:
Like I said, I really liked it!!! I feel like these complaints aren't even that major, but because I did like it so much, I'm more able to critique it in ways that aren't just "idk man it sucked?"

MaM event preview + other scout preview are tonight and I'm like....beside myself ngl, I'm not sure how I'm gonna make it XD I'm having a combination of excitement + anxiety, which is really fun. I just love that my mental illness makes me anxious about...being excited for a thing I'm gonna like???? Like, what? That doesn't even make sense!!! I just wanna enjoy myself ;w; I'm also nervous because like........most of the fanthanx have been really good with fantastic songs, but what if I don't like this one? What if one of my favorite characters ends up having something shitty? Even trying to remind myself that the rest have been good only stresses me out more, cuz I get reminded of my high expectations, and it starts the cycle again.

Unrelated, I should probably get back into therapy. This isn't even a situation where I should step away from enstars because it's causing undue stress; I'd be like this about anything I tried to enjoy right now. Why? Who knows!!!!! Like I sorta know why, but also that isn't enough to stop me from completely locking up when I try to have a nice time.

Speaking of things that upset me for no reason other than ~mental illness~, there are some changes coming to scouting in JP. They're shifting some of the percentages around slightly and also...scout coins are now gonna be universal, instead of tied to just the box you got them from. Of course, this kicks in after this event's scouts, so like...I'm only slightly salty that I'm not gonna get to benefit from it after scouting a ton for rate up for MaM. The news also dropped after I'd been up for 30+ hours straight, which made me take something that honestly sounds quite good badly, for ????? reasons. From what it sounds like, you'll be able to save up the scout coins and use them whenever, so in theory I could start saving them in preparation for the next time one of my faves has a scout box, just as back up if I don't get them from scouting for them.

....it does sound kinda too good to be true, so I'm waiting to see how it works when it rolls out. But if it really does end up working out like that, I might be able to max Madara's next gacha card without spend nearly as much as I did on Kohaku's XD

other enstars accomplishments )

I've had other stuff going on, but I've been rambling long enough and I think I can finally go sort out the website stuff I've been dealing with all week...just one thing after another, you know?

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[Umineko When They Cry]


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bluapapilio: rin and suguro from blue exorcist (aoeku sugurin)

According to the wiki, chapter 69-99 covers this arc, I've seen episode 1 of the arc in the anime so shouldn't take long to catch up.

Chapter 68: Is it really so unclear to everyone that Yukio's going through something serious?

Bathhouse fanservice. Standard "bigger boobs are better" propaganda. It's good to see Shiemi and Kamiki getting along so well though.

Aand it even comes with an attempted peeking moment. Two shounen in a row with this frickin' content, both female authors.

What exactly was Mephisto expecting?!

Chapter 69: Gotta wonder if Arthur is always so emotional or it's just around Mephisto.

Shiemi notices something's up with Yukio, Rin is jealous again but agrees.

Meanwhile Yukio finds an abandoned building, guess he's going to train and try to become stronger than Rin. I don't think it's a bad thing he wants to become stronger but the probably is he's mentally 'weak'. He needs to work through that too.

Chapter 70: Nice conversation between Kamiki and Suguro. Suguro is still messed up from Shima and Kamiki says she feels oddly refreshed now that she's lost everything, and wants to be an exorcist more than ever.

The students have to graduate in a month, and Lewin the demon summoner (what a showoff~) from Arc Knights will be a cram school teacher.

Lmao so many people came to his class, a mix of actual students, observers and adults who want to study from him.

I think once Bon gets past his rigid thinking/teachings about summoning he can become a real beast.

I understand Lewin when he says "I don't have any great ambition, I just love this world". That's why he always go so hard with everything, but yet he has the control to calm everything down in an instant. If I could do what he does I'd feel the same way.

badly_knitted: (Varian in cape)

Title: Accidental Interference
Fandom: The Fantastic Journey
Summary: Non-interference might be the ideal, but it’s not proving practical.



Challenge 31 - Voting

Feb. 25th, 2026 01:27 am[personal profile] luminousdaze posting in [community profile] screen_icons
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I worry that with a lot of these Team 8 entries, we are simply reiterating the same facts over and over again, but I really want to treat the stories of each of these girls as special and individual, so I don't care. If I have to repeat myself, I have to repeat myself, and with that said, Yaguchi Moka passed AKB48's Team 8 auditions and joined the group alongside Abe Mei, Okabe Rin, Okubora Chinatsu, Nagano Serika, Fujimura Natsuki, Onishi Momoka, Kuranoo Narumi, Shitao Miu, Cho Kurena, Hamamatsu Riona, Fukuchi Rena, Honda Hitomi, Yokomichi Yuri, the other Yokoyama Yui, Yoshino Miyu, Oda Erina, Oguri Yui, Yoshikawa Nanase, Hayasaka Tsumugi, and Hirose Natsuki, debuting in the SKE48 theatre performance of PARTY ga Hajumaru yo in 2014. Already highly thought of, Moka appeared with her peers in the opening number, Skirt, Hirari, and also Hoshi no Ondo alongside Nanase and Natsuki.

With the release of 47 no Suteki na Machi e on the B side of Kokoro no Placard in 2015, Team 8, with Moka amongst them, set out on tour, performing in a number of prefectures, not least of all her home ground of Miyazaki. Throughout this period, Moka and Team 8 were propping up the B sides of almost every AKB release, joining Tsumugi by making it as far Teacher Teacher before her graduation. I had stepped back at this point in time, but I can't help but wonder what these days must have been like for newer fans at the time, especially those brought in by the nationwide tour. It must have felt like there were two AKBs at this time, the "underground idols" doing all the hard work touring and actually being "idols you can meet," and, in contrast, AKB the institution, what remained of the Kami 7 and the golden age. This conflict can be seen in the results of the general election, for which Moka failed to rank each year of her time in the group right up until her final year when, like any sensible person, she chose not to participate.

From the age of three, Moka had been studying ballet, and whilst idols represent a very different kind of dance, I think it's obvious that, unspoken, she was part of the changing trend in the idol industry and AKB itself that saw the group pivot towards a more complex focus on dance than previous generations. Being an idol often implies having a number of talents, yet dance has become so integral to the identity of the medium, partly following the explosion of the Hallyu Wave, that I cannot fault management for wanting to make use of the inordinate number of trained girls that came of age and turned up at auditions during these years.

In 2017, as with other members of Team 8, Moka was afforded a concurrent position, joining fellow Team 8 member Yokoyama Yui over in Team K. Unlike Yoko-chan, however, Moka did not stay. Lasting almost a year, her graduation arrived in November 2018, this self-described flirty girl desperate to lessen the divide between fans and members finally heading out into adulthood and leaving her former teammates behind.

Like Nanase, like many members of Team 8, Moka isn't the kind of girl that gets invited back for reunions and anniversary, but also like those former teammates of hers, Yaguchi Moka was one of the girls who brought AKB48 shouting and dancing into where it is now, a place where anniversaries and reunions can be celebrated.

Moka!
mistressofmuses: Image of nebulae in the colors of the bi pride flag: pink, purple, and blue (Default)


Happy year of the horse! Lunar new year was on Tuesday the 17th. This sticker is a Prezwalski horse by artist Featherbone.

This week was kind of a drag. The week started with the extremely sad news about my friend spikedluv passing away. While she'd passed away a couple weeks ago, I didn't learn about it until Sunday, and I very much miss her presence. I'm still sick, and at this point I'm just tired of it dragging on! I'm coughing a lot, and I'm tired, and I'm going through kleenex way faster than I'd like. Otherwise I feel mostly okay, but I'm just so tired of it, ha. Alex and I did have a lovely day on Monday, visiting the botanic gardens, but everything else was pretty blah. I did push through to get a lot done on Saturday, which sort of felt like it redeemed the do-nothing of the rest of the week, but I still did very little writing and am frustrated by how slow reading has been.

Goals for the week:

  • I did not finish reading Hell Bent, though I did read some almost every night
  • I did work on reviews
  • We did pet-sit for mom and Taylor
  • We went to the botanic gardens as a bit of a belated Valentine's day
  • I did not make my phone calls
  • I did not work on my reading page
  • I did not work on my WIP outline
  • I did water my plants. My poor plants.

Tracked habits:

  • Work - 5/7
  • Household Maintenance - 5/7
  • Physical Activity - 3/7
  • Wrote 500/1000+ Words - 0/7
  • Non-fiction Writing - 1/7 - over 1000 words
  • Meta Work - 2/7
  • Personal Writing - 4/7
  • Other Creative Things - 1/7
  • Reading - 7/7 - mostly I read Hell Bent, though I read a bit of my ebook; Alex and I read some of The Luminous Dead
  • Attention to Media - 7/7 - Sunday we watched the Olympics, and I fell asleep watching youtube; Monday we also watched some youtube; Tuesday we watched some Olympic figure skating, some news coverage, and later a review; Wednesday we watched some news and storm chasing, and then some game playthroughs; Thursday we watched more Olympic figure skating and ski mountaineering (which seems horrible, lol); Friday watched a gaming livestream and some Olympics; Saturday had some Olympics in the background.
  • Video Games - 0/7
  • Social Interaction - 3/7

Total words written: 1221 on reviews

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curiosity: A full moon in a star-filled sky over a winding highway. (Picto: Road and Sky)
Theme Prompt: #285 - Fresh Start
Title: Emotion Made Manifest
Fandom: MDZS
Rating/Warnings: G - some thoughts about parental neglect
Bonus: No.
Word Count: 745
Summary: Jiang Cheng prepares his art studio and reflects.

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