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[FFXIV Fic] Gentle Dark, Chapter 8: The Weight of Destiny

Fandom: Final Fantasy XIV
Rating: Mature
Archive Warnings: Major Character Death
Relationships: Urianger Augurelt/Moenbryda Wilfsunnwyn, Urianger Augurelt & Moenbryda Wilfsunnwyn, Ardbert & Urianger Augurelt, Unrealized Ardbert/Urianger Augurelt, Pre-Urianger Augurelt/Warrior of Light
Characters: Urianger Augurelt, Moenbryda Wilfsunnwyn, Ardbert Hylfyst, Elidibus, Unukalhai, Tataru Taru, Minfilia Warde, Warrior of Light, Dewlala Dewla, Y'shtola Rhul, Yugiri Mistwalker, Thancred Waters, J'Rhoomale, Blanhaerz, Lamimi, Naillebert, Haneko Burneko
Additional Tags: Grief/Mourning, Angst, Religion, Isolation, Loneliness, Patch 3.4: Soul Surrender Spoilers (Final Fantasy XIV), Elezen Warrior of Light, Female Warrior of Light, Canon-Typical Violence, Guilt, Emotional Repression, Child Neglect, Childhood Memories, Unresolved Sexual Tension
Series: With Lilies and With Laurel
Length: 49,083 / 92,000
Chapter: 8/15

Summary:

Heartbroken after the loss of his dearest companion, Urianger labors to save two worlds in which he has never felt more alone.

Notes:

I've only just realized that the section breaks in recent chapters have not been showing up in Dreamwidth's html editor as they do in AO3's 😱 so I am working on going back and fixing that. (I'm not sure how far back that has been a problem.) I've been dealing with a lot of stress irl and I'm embarrassed not to have noticed there was a formatting issue! Apologies for any decreased readability. I'll try to keep a better eye out in the future.

If you're new here, please start with Chapter 1!

Final Fantasy XIV is owned by Square Enix. This is a non-commercial work of fanfiction.

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Drabblethon: The Midnight Bell in Winter - (1) Mr Eccles (2) Ernest Ralph Gorse

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friday open thread

Friday open thread: activities in incongruous places

Tonight I'm going out to the next iteration of the silent disco (80s/90s/2000s music — the cheesiest you can imagine), which as always is taking place in the cathedral. There's always a weird moment of disorientation when you enter the cavernous space of this ancient medieval cathedral ... and it's full of dancing people of all ages, dressed in lurid fluoro colours, stage lighting, and DJs.

So my prompt for this week's open thread is:

What examples of activities taking place in wildly incongruous spaces have you encountered?

Current Mood: tired
Current Location: my desk

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Lost And Found Challenge: The Fantastic Journey: Fanfic: Restoring Balance

Title: Restoring Balance
Fandom: The Fantastic Journey
Author:

badly_knitted
Characters: Rayat, Natica, York, Ty, the Travellers.
Rating: PG
Setting: The Innocent Prey.
Summary: Jonathan Willaway has never been particularly sociable, but being alone doesn’t suit him either.
Word Count: 500
Content Notes: Nada.
Written For: Challenge 507: Amnesty 84, using Challenge 72: Lost And Found.
Disclaimer: I don’t own The Fantastic Journey, or the characters. They belong to their creators.

( Restoring Balance... )

Current Mood: tired
Current Location: my desk

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Drabblethon: Without A Trace: The Fantastic Journey

Title: Without A Trace
Fandom: The Fantastic Journey
Summary: The travellers find themselves in a swamp, but one of their number is missing.

( Without A Trace... )

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Drabblethon: Inspector George Gently: Disagreement

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my writing: fics: k-9

New K-9 fic: To win your hand (Ren/Oboro/Fujimaru/Kagari + one-sided Sasakura/Fujimaru)

First K-9 fic I posted since the tags got wrangled :D Ooooh the delicious luxury of having the ship name auto-complete... 🫦 especially when it's long af XD

I guess I'm celebrating by creating even more character/ship tags haha. Hello hello, Eden cast! Welcome to AO3 ;)

To win your hand | K-9 | Ren/Oboro/Fujimaru/Kagari + one-sided Sasakura/Fujimaru | 2.2k words | rated T

Summary: Jin can sew himself back together, but he can't regrow a missing hand like some kind of lizard. Now, he has a choice: either get used to it, or go search for his missing limb. Easier said than done.

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The End of the World : Marvel 616 : icons : Crushed by a Helicarrier

Title: Crushed by a Helicarrier
Fandom: Marvel 616
Rating: G
Content notes: None apply
Summary: icons of Superior Iron Man and Steve Rogers fighting just before the Incursion between Earth-616 and Earth-1610 happens and they're smushed by a helicarrier and they both perish

( Crushed by a Helicarrier )

Current Mood: accomplished

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Photos: House Yard

Today I took some pictures around the yard and did a couple of garden crafts. These are from the house yard and savanna. (See the Worm Bin and the Water Garden.)

( Walk with me ... )

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tfln

tfln wayback machine

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Smutty Pantheon

Gods and Goddesses exist, sitting in the heavens high up in the clouds watching over Mortals. However, just simply sitting on your throne in the heavens and watching things from afar isn't something all gods find riveting. A simple visit to Earth can do much to refresh a God. Perhaps you're a God or Goddess venturing down into the mortal world or maybe you're a mortal that is getting the chance to encounter a God. All things are possible here.

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Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: beat bobby flay

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books,
work

That went better than expected

My building at work is collapsing on one side not only are we working to fix that we hope to have money to renno some of the labs. It was a 2 hour meeting with the architect today and that was hopeful plus they teased the idea of other money for equipment and brought up the virtual cadaver table. I have the paperwork for those but they're 100K so let's fix the building first.

I thought my writer's zoom was today but no one was there. Wondering why. Sad I didn't get that. Did I just do it by myself? you know I didn't.

I forgot to share my books yesterday so here are Feb's reads

Cooking with Monsters fantasy LGBT graphic novel

The Southern Book Club's Guide to Slaying Vampires Urban Fantasy

Parable of the Sower: A Graphic Novel Adaptation dystopic near future SF

When the Moon Hits Your Eye near future SF

Heavy Vinyl Complete Collection LGBT graphic novel

Rebecca Gothic classic

Dark Life YA near future SF

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How We Fight for Our Lives by Saeed Jones (2019)

This short memoir follows Jones' early life growing up as a gay Black kid in 1990s Texas, through his college years and young adulthood struggling with feelings of unbelonging and uncertain identity.

The core of the book is his relationship with his mother, who died of heart disease when he was 26. She was an iconoclast, breaking with her family's conservative Christianity to become a Buddhist, and insisted on doing things her own way, including raising her son on her own. The dynamic between them is complex; he loves and respects her, and in many ways they're close and protective of each other, yet he doesn't feel truly seen by her. His sexuality is part of the barrier—she doesn't reject him, but is resistant to talking about it—and I also got a sense of her as a person who held others at arm's length because intimacy scared her.

But Jones is not too afraid to write about his most vulnerable, self-destructive, and howlingly painful moments. ( cut for content: gay bashing ) It doesn't read like he's being too harsh on himself, and it doesn't read like he's trying to make himself look good. It reads like he's found a narrative arc in what really happened rather than editing events into artificial tidiness.

Jones is primarily a poet, and the book's emotional clarity and concise lyricism bears that out. The material is heavy, but I didn't find it depressing. Rather, I felt that the fact that he's now able to write so honestly about what he's been through demonstrates that he's achieved what he's been longing for: knowing and sharing who he really is. He doesn't need to spell out that this happened for him, because when you read the book you're holding the evidence of it in your hands.

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: nothing now

Notes from the gym.

This morning in the gym, a woman some decades my senior was doing a virtual training session with another woman in between our age brackets, though closer to her than me. I could hear and see them and they could see and hear me, but it wasn't an issue - I just grabbed a kettlebell and moved to the other side of the room.

The trainer let out a gasp and said, "Look at that girl's hair!" She'd seen my braid hanging down, and couldn't help but comment.

I won't lie: it's pretty wonderful to have something about myself that catches complete strangers' attention in a charming, positive way. And I won't lie: it was a superb moment to hear someone call me a girl. Affirming and euphoric.

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Daily Happiness

1. I had another nice WFH day today. I had a web meeting at 4pm, and that would have been a web meeting even if I'd gone in, so no reason to go. Now that I'm not doing stuff that really heavily relies on accessing our system which can only be accessed from home by remoting into a PC at the store, it's nice to be able to work from home at least a couple days a week.

2. I went to the tattoo place today for my appointment but ended up not getting any work done today. She looked at my leg and said it's healing well, but the skin is still not fully back to normal, so we should wait to do the touch up. I told her I'd be in Japan for the first half of April, so we agreed to see how it's looking when I get back and do it then. The tattoo place is only about 15-20 minutes away (and today was good traffic both ways) so it was no bother going in, and I was glad to have her look at it. I told her I'm really happy with it, even how it is now. It really only has a few spots that need to be touched up. On the bottom front there's a bit where the marker she used to draw the lines still shows, and on the back there are a few bits where skin shows in between the color bands. But all of that is only noticeable when you look close, so I'm fine with waiting until after our trip.

3. We had two beat up cardboard cat scratcher/loungers that we replaced with the new wood/sisal ones, and one we just put in the recycling, but the other one we put out for Tuxie to see how he'd like it and he is a big fan. It can't be used for scratching anymore, but he loves it as a lounger and has been using it every day.

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Party and Abandon Challenges: Women's Soccer RPF: Fanfiction: A Way of Her Own

Title: A Way of Her Own
Fandom: Women's Soccer RPF
Pairings: Hope Solo/Kelley O'Hara
Characters: Hope Solo, Kelley O'Hara
Rating: G
Length: 324 words
Summary: Hope constantly faces criticism about her nature. Kelley reminds her not to let them affect her.

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I've always had a thing for ya, Sid

🔪 The Call Is Coming From Inside You 🔪

A Slasher Horror Kink Meme for Killers, Victims, and the Filth Between

You heard the noise. You checked the basement.
You left the door unlocked. You moaned louder.
Now it’s too late.
And you want it.

🎥 Pick a prompt. RNG. Or pick the one that makes you sweat.
📞 Tag someone. Victim, killer, or monster—it doesn’t matter.
💀 Any dynamic. Just make it bloody, brutal, and fucked-up hot.

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Media Roundup: Onward!

I’ve gotten back into the habit of going to the library once a week on the same day (Monday) to return stuff and pick up my holds. (This is also the best way I’ve found to get myself to return my books on time now that the library got rid of late fees) I keep thinking “this week the stack of new things will be smaller” but it never is. Surely I’ll run out of graphic novels I want to read that the library has at some point? But I’m glad it's not yet.

In other news I have now read more books this year than I did all of last year, which is pretty wild! Like sure they are all short things but I’m just reading so much more than I was few months ago and it’s really nice.

Red Threads by Ila Nguyen-Hayama—A graphic novel about a 15 year old girl in Tokyo who is invited to attend a magical school. This was very cute and charming if a little heavy on the info dumping about Japanese folklore. I really liked the main character's friendship with another girl at school.

Lumberjanes, Vol. 8-14 by N.D. Stevenson and Shannon Watters, et al.— I’d read up through Vol 10 years ago, but now I’m at stuff I haven’t read before. Still very fun!

Lumberjanes/Gotham Academy by Chynna Clugston Flores et al. —A crossover between two very fun comics both featuring teams of teens who deal with supernatural mysteries – I enjoyed it a lot! I wish there was more time for cross team interactions but it would be hard to fit in and keep focus on the story

Animated Batman—It’s nice to be into media that my kid also is interested in. She doesn’t watch anything with subtitles, but she likes Batman. So I’ve watched a handful of episodes of the 90’s animated Batman with her. (I started from where she’s gotten to before so not at the beginning) In terms of Bat-fam its not doing a lot, most of the kids/sidekicks aren’t in this and those that are aren’t around much (though I’m told they show up more frequently latter on) However the show itself is very well crafted! I’m impressed with both the animation (the style! The attention to detail) and the storytelling

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games

Slay the Princess!

I've finished a play through of Slay the Princess. I really enjoyed it! I will now try to go after all the achievements héhéhé

I had to turn off the parallax and the ambient sound so I wouldn't get nauseous. Something to keep in mind if you're sensitive to motion sickness and/or vertigo.

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